We hit the 16 week mark of this pregnancy on Saturday. In case you are wondering, baby is now the size of an avocado and there is no mistaking that this mama is 100% showing. I am in complete shock that the past 16 weeks seem to have gone by in the blink of an eye, considering the path to get to this point feels like it went by at a snails pace. I wake up and look in the mirror daily at my now rounder belly and can’t help but smile and feel so incredibly thankful for it, yet there isn’t a day that goes by that I could completely forget my journey to get here. This baby is so wanted, so special and so loved already. I can barely contain how full my heart feels as it’s just bursting at the seams. It surely was not an easy road, but it truly was all worth it.
There were many days in this that my hope and faith was faltering and I thought I would never see the day of a positive pregnancy test. Then I had days where I knew this wasn’t the end of my story and I was not going to give up. I’m so very glad I never did give up. I’m so glad I kept fighting for this pregnancy. I’m just so grateful I continued to listen to my heart. Looking back from then to now, it is so incredibly amazing to see how our journey unfolded and I am even more grateful for all I’ve been able to take away from it-the good and the bad.
We all have things in life that happen to us that are not fair. I always try to remind myself of the the saying that goes something like this: If you were to take all the people in the world and throw your problems in a pot and then you could fish out a new problem-you’d more then likely be wishing for your old problem back. Secondary infertility isn’t fair, but I know my situation could be a lot worse and there are much bigger problems in the world for sure. I’ve said it before and I’ll say it again, I am grateful for my struggle. It may have taken me a long time to figure out what it was trying to teach me and what I needed to take from it, but when I got there I was able to find a bit of peace. As unfair as it is, it’s my own unique story and I wouldn’t be here to share it with you if I didn’t go through it.
Whatever you are going through today, I hope you find perspective. I hope you find a humble heart. I hope you find grace with yourself. I hope you find peace. I hope you know you are strong enough to live it. There are ups and downs and all arounds. Good days. Bad days and in between days. When you get to where you know you need to be, where you long to me, and where you’ve been praying to be in your struggle-it’s the best damn feeling in the world-just never forget how you got there!
Best wishes to you on this Monday!
Hope Anchors the Soul 