…well, I guess she’s been here for almost a month already. I can hardly believe that she will be a month old on Saturday already! With that said, I am not going to apologize for neglecting to update my blog sooner because life with a baby and a 4.5 year old is busy, overwhelming, and chaotic. As you can imagine, I’m also running on very little sleep and basically I am also a human milk machine! I keep telling my husband that I don’t know if I am coming or going most days. My mind feels like it’s running on overdrive and it feels like I’m living in a whirl wind! I’ve also been trying to enjoy and embrace all those snuggles, precious newborn moments and enjoy time as a family of four which has been my priority over anything right now. We’ve had a major change in our lives and our family dynamic and we are all adjusting, learning, and trying to make it one moment at a time from day to day. Although, it hasn’t been easy it’s all been so incredibly worth it.
Unfortunately, that means lots of things have been put last. As you can probably guess, my blog has been put on the back burner for a little while now, but that’s not to say that it hasn’t been on the back of my mind! The support I’ve had writing this blog and sharing our journey has been amazing and has connected me with many incredible people who have also shared their amazing journey with me. I am so fortunate for that and didn’t want to leave any of you in the dust. I am finally finding a quiet moment this morning to do a small update. Sooo…..
Photo Credit to Lindsay Daly with Daly Reminders Photography
It is with great pleasure to introduce to you our sweet miracle, baby girl, Kynnslee Elizabeth. She was born at 11:13 a.m. on 11/17/16. She weighed in at 7 lbs., 10 oz. and was 20.5 inches long. First glimpses of our little lady was incredibly surreal and emotional. Her story and her journey to get here is a special one and I can’t even begin to explain the love we have for our baby. I just can’t stop looking at her, holding her, kissing her sweet cheeks. I’m just in awe that she’s here. Even typing “she’s here” gives me goosebumps and tears swell in my eyes. Guys and gals she is just simply an amazing blessing that we had hoped for for a long time and one dream we just could never give up on and gratefully so, God never gave up on us either.
One thing many of you are probably wondering about it E and how she is adjusting to the role of big sister. To answer that, this has been a huge change for our little miss. Although she’s been extremely in love with her new sister, it’s also been a huge adjustment for her where my husband and I have noticed some behavioral changes in here (and not necessarily for the better). I’d be lying if I said it has been perfect and easy because it’s been far from either. However, I’d say that this is to be expected given it’s been just her and I and her dad for the last 4.5 years! Looking at that aspect, I think she is doing the best she knows how and we are doing the best we can as her parents to help her adjust to such a big change in our dynamic. She is simply the best big sister though towards K. She’s gentle. She’s affectionate. She’s a big helper. She has a kind heart. She reads her stories. She talks to her and tries to calm K when she’s upset. Even in the very hardest of moments I am so happy to have given E a sibling and hopefully a forever friend!
My husband and I are also adjusting. I have to say it is very hard spreading your time out as evenly as possible between our two girls. I think it’s especially hard for me when K needs such 1:1 personal care right now. I know it’s harder now because she’s so small and that’s one thing that gets me through each day is knowing that it will get better as we all have more of a routine and as K gets a bit older. Until then, my husband and I are doing the best we can functioning on little sleep to give our girls the best care, love and attention. They are our world! I must admit too though that I am getting very excited to find some time in the near future to have some hubby and me time-even just a dinner date just the two of us would be nice. I feel like it’s so important and healthy to still make time as a couple too. We just haven’t found our groove yet to have any extra time to do so-and K still isn’t taking bottles (not because we haven’t tried, she just prefers the boob)!
At any rate, I very much appreciate all the support we’ve gotten through all of this. We couldn’t have made it this far without the people in our lives who have been present during our journey and continue to love and support us. Thank you doesn’t even begin to describe how grateful I am to you all. No matter what in life you are struggling with, just come to the realization that your journey may not go as you expect it to go. If you have expectations more then likely they lead you to disappointment. It’s when you let go, have faith and hope and trust in the big guy upstairs and shift your focus, that you will see God’s plans for you are bigger then anything you could have imagined. We are living proof of this. Never give up! You’ve got this because God’s always got you.